Thoughts Abt Relationships

Just some random thoughts...

Had my fair share of "bad" relationships, suitors who were only interested in the chase but not in building a lasting relationships and so on...Haha wat a LOOOOOONG time ago :)

But there was this particular brief relationship that I had with someone that left quite an impression on me and subsequently changed my outlook towards relationships, I guess.

There was this once, I had this conversation with the guy I was besotted with.It goes something like this.
Me: Tell me, what is it that u like about me? (Wishing that he would list down 101 good things abt me)
Him: Ehm.....(He paused for quite some time)
Me: Okie, tell me why u decided to have a relationship with me?
Him: Cos of companionship..

And I flared up and started accusing him that any other girl could have kept him accompanied and something along that line...and he had to do his best to pacify me.But it stuck with me, it made me wonder if he had not liked me for who i am but rather wanted someone around and that our relationship was so shallow.And of cos, the relationship fizzed out.

Unfortunately or fortunately, I started to subscribe to his idea of relationships-it is good to have someone around but if there isnt, it is all right-the world will not crumpled.

When i entered my current relationship, i had the "look-see-look-see" attitude. But HE managed to change it, by constantly assuring tat i am the one for him and that HE will always be there for me no matter what.

Very slowly, I realised that i have gotten serious in this relationship and i am able to see a future together with him. HE means the world to me now.

However, Im also worried as the stakes are getting higher(as though we are playing the game of Bluff :), i might not be able to recoup my losses when things do go as expected.

Anyway, lets just enjoy the moment and cherish whatever we have k!:)