3 months (12 weeks and 4 days) have just whizzed through. My little tan Bao Bao is not longer that little anymore heh and now she is renamed as Sophie girl girl
And because of the mayhem, we have neglected the blog. Guess it is time to rev my engine before time just roll by and I can't remember my dearest growing up years and hopefully one day, my baby will be able to read her life story.
Starting from the day our dear sophie was born (from that day on, I have been constantly doubting if I am a capable mother who can provide for my baby)
18 Jan 2012
My first time warded in a hospital
Because sophie was already 40 weeks and 6 days, the doc advised us that it would be too risky to continue to have her in my tummy so we had to induce her.
My mummy kept bargaining to the doc to have her delivered after the lunar new year so that she will be born in the year of the dragon. But i was hoping she was a dec baby just like me :)
But the induction didn't went well; even after one long night, my cervix didn't dilated at all. Doc came at around 8am and wanted to pop in another pill but me and xin decided to go for caesarean instead. I was disappointed as I wanted to have my baby via natural very much.
I didn't know what to expect in the operation theatre especially when I was wheeled in alone and left waiting outside the operating theatre. I was scared.
Once in the theatre, the masked nurses were very reassuring and also the anaesthetist who kept talking to me. I only remembered telling dr koh to leave a pretty scar for me. I totally blacked out.
I vaguely remembered being wheeled back to the room and the nurse telling me to breastfeed my baby but I was only semi conscious. I couldn't wake up to hold her. To this day, there is still the tinge of regret when i see others having their photos taken with their newborn after delivery.
When I was more conscious, I asked to see her- it was love at first sight. She was still so small, but had cute ruddy cheeks.
The pain from the c-section was bad, really bad. Movement was sooo slow and there was also the pain from
the canister. I had already decided on breastfeeding but it was tough. But when I saw her suckling, I knew it was worth it. ( that's why even though my milk supply is at a all time low, i insist of breastfeeding but there are times
It feels like im alone in it)
The hospital stay was a breeze but xin had to fall sick during this period. The horror only came in when i shifted home for confinement.
I challenged the confinement tradition of not bathing and cried and quarrelled with my mum over so many things. But because she was my mummy, we always get back together again. I absolutely believe Sophie and me will also have our own love- hate relationship.
At first month celebration for our baby
Sophie
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